June 14, 2023

Oh my sweet sweet girl. I wonder about everything. I wonder how your nights are and how your days are and how your feelings are what you learned about your companion and what you learned about all the people in your district. I wonder if the peaceful moments of quiet study with the palm trees around you are filling your soul with peace you haven’t been able to find in quite a while because life has been so chaotic here with everything going on and saying goodbye and all of that. I wonder if you’re drenched in the spirit because of all the dedicated study you’re doing and because of your consecration and giving your life to the Lord. I wonder what you’re missing what you you’re in for. I want to know your feelings I want to look in your eyes and talk to you about everything. It kind of breaks my heart that tomorrow will be so busy for me but I want you to call me whenever you can and I will let things go. Laura did really good talk on Sunday. It was about just speaking kindly. I am overwhelmed with gratitude and I think about how lucky we are that we’ve had the gospel. Some people are honestly thought that if you don’t stick up for yourself you’re a weekly and I need to go through life defending and protecting our own interests and I’m just so grateful for the kindness I love that we live inside of. I’ve been thinking about for landlord didn’t assign us to judge each other he just assigned us the love. That’s a really nice place to be. I’m not saying I’m doing it perfectly but it’s a nice place to live and he’s kind to us not asking us to judging each other. I’m so grateful for that. Im Just going to ramble for a minute and catch you up. laying in your bed and the clouds are so beautiful above Laura’s house. Tonight was just the right little bit of Stormy. We got to Griffin for a little bit and he is talking so much. He’s such a funny little man. Now he is always pointing somewhere where he wants to go and see you and explore and eat or drink or do or visit or touch. Not just pointing that jumping out of your arms to get there. Lydia took him to the zoo today and he made the monkey sound without being prompted. He was so amazed by the Lions that he had to show them to everyone that walked by. Marcus park is called me on the phone today and I asked him how his socks were and he kept showing me his socks. He also went out in the garden and picked his first strawberry. Oh the boys are so so yummy. Who do you think will have a baby next? I hope it’s Jeni. We were over there tonight and she is so so so pregnant. I wish I was helping her more. I’ve had a weekend of miracles. Special Olympics was very intense on the preparation end but then it was one of the most magical if not the most magical thing we’ve ever done with hands together. It was the most precious and perfect weekend. The kids knocked it out of the park , Katie Rasmussen on the national anthem she sounded like Whitney Houston. The kids were doing sign language and it was just so beautiful. Then our musical member was so fun and so great and the kids were so shiny and the audience loved it. Then to have all of my kids at the special-needs dance just having the time of their lives dancing with everyone didn’t matter if they were old or younger man or woman or anything they just danced with him and it was just pure heaven. Saturday is karaoke I don’t think there was 10 minutes where we didn’t have a special-needs person in our booth singing karaoke. I’m so grateful for my heavenly father because he inspired all of that and it was such a sacred experience. Camp Hobe is tomorrow and I would appreciate your prayers. I didn’t know how to play with them together and I fasted and prayed so hard and read and worked and have slept very little but somehow he made another miracle and we have a really really funny wonderful darling show. The cutest group of kids they’ve been so positive and so engaged and they wrote this play and they just keep thinking of new jokes and it’s just been the sweetest week. I think tomorrow’s gonna be really sacred . I’m sure praying that it is. Sethie is up at leader ship camping it looks like he’s having so much fun. I’m going to bed here at one in the morning and dad hast to get up at three to drive to Logan to pick up Seth. I’ve been getting up at 345 to get stuff done before camp and staying up super late but I think it’s a pretty wonderful life when you have things that are more important than sleep sometimes. I’m grateful. Tomorrow night we get to her tonight I guess we get to close our show and then sing extraordinary Magic to the kids and give them out their own blank books and new pans so they can write their own magical stories. I’m really excited about that part. I’m so grateful that my heavenly father has been so patient with me and helped me. I have found myself praying like I told you praying and gratitude that he leave the lights on for me not because I deserve them now because I’ve earned them not because I’m good enough because I’m not. I’m so behind in the house and I make so many mistakes and fall short in so many areas I don’t deserve his love nor have I earned any of my blessings it’s all just a big mercy fest. Joseph and Ally are seriously taking the compost completely. I haven’t touched it in a week and a half. They are just doing so awesome. They’re making so much money and they’re working so hard and their is handling everything. I feel like next week your letter will have pictures of the beautiful new baby with 2 inches of hair. I love the prayer and ether three has been very touching to me this week I don’t know why I’m stuck in either but I just can’t seem to get out of it I love it so much. The way the brother of Jared speaks to the Lord is very touching to me and ether three I love you sugar baby. I better get a few hours of sleep so I can drive the kids safely to Tuella and face the big day we have tomorrow so grateful for you. So excited to talk to your face. Love you mama May the road rise to meet you, May the wind be always at your back. May the sun shine warm upon your face, The rains fall soft upon your fields. And until we meet again, May God hold you in the palm of his hand. I love this song SO MUCH